Sometimes it feels that to get anything done I must do it quickly.
A couple likely causes might be that that I’m worried:
- that I will loose my train of thought
- my willpower to do said thing will dwindle over time
- later circumstances will prevent me from acting
These are mostly false, ideas are fickle and so are plans. They appear, evolve, burn out and regenerate in a new form. Once a thought comes into mind it can go many places. If I would love for that idea to be more than just a thought in my head the only thing to do is to get it out in the open.
Getting it out of my head means either acting on it, jotting down or telling someone. Of these options, the most satisfying is to bring it to completion. Telling someone releases all the endorphins of completing the task you envisioned doing. Being told ‘What a wonderful idea, you should do that’ creates a feeling, in a way, that I already have. Yet, I haven’t acted or pursued my goal in anyway besides telling someone, which is so easy!
Thus, this sense of urgency is a draw to complete the thing I said I would like to do as quickly as possible so I am not perceived as a liar.
Van Planning Uncertainty
I want to own this van as soon as possible. Yet, waiting is optimal. More time to save money, more time to downsize and plan. Or is it? As Lui and I ponder more and more we are left with this choice, hustle now or survive another long depressing winter?
Even research has become frustrating. I can’t do much more without actually having the van in front of me. Testing out plans and making drawings feels like day dreaming, it feels like hoping it will happen. I know it will! Now I need the van so I can test all of these assumptions I have been making.
So I can bring my plans to life. Mould this idea, flesh it out and work towards it. “Maybe I’ll make a kitchen area, or the composting toilet” I dream. But we don’t have enough information about what dimensions, because we don’t really know exactly what make or model of van we will be getting. How much room will we have between the counters? Will there be windows? Where are the wheel wells?
Awaiting Our Van
Right now I still have the last dregs of my student loan to sweep away, once gone saving will begin in ernest. Simultaneously, there are things that need to be done on the house, painting, small repairs. These small repairs will only accumulate the longer we wait, meaning we are spending more money on the house in the long run, and less on our dream.
Lui and I discussed buying the van this year. Our ‘buy now’ vs ‘buy next year’ pro/con lists are swaying very heavily to the ‘buy now’ side of things. We have contacted people privately selling their vans, but haven’t heard back.
That being said, we would like to buy it used at a dealership, because then we could trade in both of our cars and go on a payment plan for the rest of it.
So, the next step in our journey is to look at vans, even if we end up holding off until next year. We need to test drive some vans, walk around in them, measure them and be in contact. Who knows, maybe we find out that we are comfortable with a much smaller van then we thought?
Maybe we find a 2008 Mercedes Sprinter with extended cab and super high roof with under a hundred thousand km for under $15,000 on our first outing to the dealership!!… I can dream.
Here are some links to Youtube videos of people living in vans!
Canadian couple living nomadically! (bonus they are vegan too! lol)
Couple that quit their jobs and live in a Sprinter van!